Blog disclaimer: I am immensely religious and so most of what I post will touch on that religious belief. Enjoy at your own religious pleasure.
*Introduction*
Healing is the act of making better something which has become unhealthy. For most physical healing is the most common form of healing. For such a purpose were doctors, nurses, hospitals, and clinics created. While most notice the status of their physical healing are they taking note of their spiritual healing? Where do you go to check on your spiritual temperature, to diagnose the softness of your heart or to get hearing aids for peace? Most would say your local church bishop, Priest, or religious formation of some sort will allow one to check on their spiritual standing. I say what about the power of self? What can we do individually to start our spiritual healing process and to eventually feel whole again after something has brought immense devastation to our soul?
*My story**Chapter One*
In May of 2012 I met Marshal Anthony. He was daring, forward, fast and direct to say the least. I was tentative, close minded, and unsure of starting another long distance relationship only four months after Adam( a man in the UK who i had dated for 2 years and had been engaged too). Only 3 days after skyping with Marshal he told me he loved me, that there was something special about me and that he knew one day we would be married. I had no such feelings and almost took him for crazy. How could he know that so soon, how would he be so willing to follow that feeling and why was I meant to meet him? Were all thoughts that came to me during the initial stage of getting to know him.
On week two we read our patriarchal blessings together and almost out of nowhere my heart swelled within my chest and beat ferociously " I love you" I blurted and Marshal just smiled and said " I've found my penguin." Now for the sake of those that don't know, penguins search for their special mate, the one that will be their constant companion and who will be there for the whole span of their life (disclaimer: Just as humans might have several mates throughout the course of there life, so in some cases will penguins.) Within three weeks I had become Marshals one and only and as we started to skype every night I fell deeper in love than I had anticipated.
Marshal was a Ranger in the army and had a hard job of deploying at anytime if his team was ever needed for a mission. He described members of his team to me and how they had made it through basic training, airborne school, ranger school, and sere training together. Morgan and Kelly were his closest teammates and he talked of them often. The many, many times that Morgan and Kelly had saved his life and vise versa.. his stories were very detailed and often ended with me in tears and him saying "Its just something you will never fully understand, the things I have been through, so don't try. I have been through what should have normally killed a man but I never died so now I have to deal with the after effects." He often said that him getting off the Ranger team was the only way he could give our future family the attention and time that it would deserve and although I never wanted him to give up something he had worked so hard for and meant so much to him I understood the commitment that he was offering me and it only furthered my love for him.
Now I had never seen myself with a military man let a lone one that had seen so much despair and death in the world, however there was something inside of me that gave me the strength and let me know that I was strong enough to be married to a man with so much baggage and that my understanding heart could comprehend enough to love him through anything that might happen while he was in the service of our country.
I often prayed to my Heavenly Father to know if Marshal Anthony was the man I should be with and to see if we were headed down the right path. Every time I prayed I felt warmth and love from Him and knew that He was pleased with my hearts desires and it felt wonderful to grow closer to Him through prayer and scripture study...........**To Be Continued**
