Sometimes

All too soon the dress was bought, the cake tasting over and the venue booked. I count myself blessed to have a wonderful loving mother who is amazing at planning weddings.

 With her keeping me on schedule we had everything done 3 weeks prior to our wedding date and it left room for growth within our long distance romance.There were of course minor disagreements such as me suggesting he wear a nice tux on the wedding day and Marshal throwing a fit while accusing me of not caring enough about his army career to ask him to wear his dress greens...Me wanting a Smith sized wedding reception which easily goes over 200 people any day and Marshal wanting a small back yard gathering...And the best one of all was how Marshal kept asking me if me moving to Georgia was really what I wanted. He brought it up at least three times and every time said something to this effect, "Aimee you can always have a few months with your parents if you aren't ready to move just yet..." Excuse me? I love the man but really? He needed to stop saying we could live apart and that he missed me all in the same day.
 Besides the small squabbles that can accompany a budding relationship there was one in particular that I should have paid more attention too. The time apart did make us miss each other very much but it still left no excuse for Marshal to ask me to fly down to Georgia and sleep with him. He would sneak the invitation in when I was always in the most vulnerable states. It made me angry and a little on edge. Our goal was to be married in the Salt Lake Temple why was he wanting to throw all of that away for a few nights of "fun." I tried my best to talk him down and to remind him of the blessings we would receive if we did our marriage right, we could have each other for Eternity. He would than back peddle and agree with me...but really if you agree with someone deep in your heart do you really bring it up again? Do you try to beguile them into your will and not the Fathers? It was my blind faith and love that blinded me for the worse unfortunately and it would only be a matter of time before I unearthed a more bitter guile that would tear my world apart.
 Sometimes though it is the Fathers will to think the best of someone. Sometimes it is His will to experience an utter and complete happiness and than an utter and destructive sadness. Sometimes walking blindly is okay and sometimes Faith is all He wants you to have.