Sometimes when I let my mind wander I realize my worth and my potential and I cant help but cry. How could I have let myself down by marrying someone who appreciated me so little and how was that ever going to be enough for me?
I love my Heavenly Father with the most intense love possible. I cannot imagine a world without his Atonement and a way to be joined for Eternity with those that truly love me. My heart is so full and I have a constant prayer in my heart that I will not let myself down again. That I can be a strong, loving, selfless daughter of God who can keep moving forward towards my goals and dreams.
My heart aches for an eternal family centered around Christ and I pray with all of my heart that I can someday have that blessing of undying love and devotion from a worthy man of God who will live up to his temple covenants and who will bless our children with the Holy Priesthood. I cannot express adequately the respect and adoration I have for those men out there who are keeping there standards high and treating woman right. We, woman of God, are heavenly queens sent here to raise a righteous seed unto our Heavenly Father and to help them achieve their own testimony and to someday return home to our Heavenly Father.
Men, please do not forget who we are and why we are essential to His plan and that he loves us. I know that I have not completed my account of my failed marriage but I pray that I will be able to record it accurately and the way the lord would have me do. I was in the deepest depths of despair and the Lord saved my life. I have a depth of gratitude that cannot be described and I know that the lord is aware of my love for him and I can feel His love in return.
I will always be eternally grateful to my earthly parents who came and on the Lords errand saved me physically. I am strong, beautiful, and worth something because of the Lord, His son Jesus Christ, the Holy Ghost, my earthly father and mother, my siblings, and my own Testimony. I know Joseph Smith was called of God and that he did indeed see God the Father and Jesus Christ. I know that he did indeed translate the Book of Mormon and I know that it is another testament of Jesus Christ.
I believe in this Gospel, I believe it to be true and I am incandescently happy to be a Latter Day Saint woman.
Aimee,
ReplyDeleteI don't know if you remember me. My name is Jasmine (Pons) I was friend with Jonny Cave - wow I guess it's been like 7 years or so.
Anyway, I saw that you dance with one of my cute high school girl friends Laurie Carlson. (Small world, right?) I saw her post a picture of you guys for Footloose, and I immediately thought -"wow that girl looks strangely familiar" So I followed the 'Tags' and of course your name showed up.
I was so excited to see your gorgeous face. I then saw the link to your blog and started reading!
Your writing is very beautiful, and powerful. I feel like just by reading the few posts that you have, I have been caught up with what has been going on in your life.
You have gone through some hard times, girl! And you are so strong! :)
I always have adored you, ever since Jonny introduced us.
I hope you are doing well, and not in a hard place now.
I would love to catch up with you in person sometime.
Contact me asap.
Jasmine
801-859-6435
Jasmine! I am terribly sorry for not showing you reaching out more focus! I was in a better place at the time you commented but life was still pretty rough for me! I hope that I can still re-ignite our friendship and I am so grateful for your willingness to read my blog and come into my life again! I love that we are friends on Facebook and have loved seeing your lovely family:) Thank you again! and I will text you sometime if you still want!
ReplyDeleteAimee